When I meet someone new, they would always have the first impression that I am friendly. It is indeed true until I stopped believing that all the person who is nice to you is considered your friend. Some were just pretending to be one in order to use you and take advantage of you. But there are some who’s indeed true to you.
If I would be brutally honest, even in my barkada in high school, I could only consider 4 out of 12 people to be my closest buds. That would be my best friend, my two mapuan buddies (HS close friends who also studied in my school) and a Benildian. I need not to name that anymore.. So here I go…
April 18, 2014 might not been one of the highlights of my best friend’s life, but it sure is a memorable day for me.. It was the funeral of my best friend’s mom and I am still glad that I made it even though I was late for about thirty minutes. Thanks to her for telling me that the service was going to be held at 11am. After finding out that it was 10am, I hurriedly took a bath and found the first cab that I saw. 😦 Eventhough I made it at 10:30am, the service was OVER. :|. I was kind of shocked and my face turned out like this :|. I felt that I was kind of a failure because I was late when she needed me the most. (What kind of bff am I? Total failure :|). So when I heard that no one cried, not even her, I kind of felt relieved. At least she’s not crying at the funeral. Anyway… Since it was good friday today, I was supposed to go home after the funeral. But I stayed longer because her cousins and I are busy playing charades. They were really laughing hard. It really felt nice. I dunno. Maybe because I was somehow acknowledge by her family..
Even though I was supposed to go home after that, they even invited me to have lunch with them. I was really shy. Seriously. But still, they treated me as if I was part of their family. Then I realized.. So this is how it feels.. when you’re close with your best friend’s family.. It’s kind of nice.. And I was still abducted and played with them until 4pm and I headed home..
The next friends are my mapuan HS friends. The first one is a girl and the other one is a guy. I’ve been really comfortable with this girl because she’s always there and the three of us hang out more often than not. It’s really nice that way.. Seriously. :P.. And the guy, it’s this feeling that I might have been his twin sister in our past life. That’s what I really feel about him, I’m really comfortable around him and we could basically understand each other even if we’re not talking. It’s just nice. And seriously, whenever there’s a gathering, usually we come together. Hahaha. In short, I am fond of inviting him as well. We could really become stand up comedians. 🙂
The last one is a Benildean. Before, I had some issues with her in the past and I may have said bad things about her but seriously, I have moved forward and let go of all the things that happened. And I am thankful that she understands fully what I feel about our other friend (kabarkada). She could honestly sympathize with me and respects me for my decisions. I am glad that she’s there whenever I badly need someone to talk to and she’s only the person I could explain to when those three doesn’t even get what my point is.
We had this talk yesterday about our other friend whom I am not in good terms (currently). It all started last February 8, 2014. It was her post birthday celebration and being one of her friends, I decided that I should come as well. However, thinking that she could do whatever she wanted (including hurting other people’s feelings), she did something that I never imagined that she would do. Because my guy friend and I were early birds, we arrived earlier than our other friends. So we sat at the table with her, her parents and her parents’ friend. Because she’s kind of a foul mouthed person, she made us look stupid in front of them. She repeatedly stated that we couldn’t pass our mock board exams because were not capable of doing so. To make things even worse, she even bragged about her accomplishments in front of them. It’s as if that she’s slapping in our faces that she is GREAT and WAY BETTER than US. Even though she may have been better in terms of career and success, I could say that I am way better in character than her.I was seriously disgusted about how low she looked on us. Not caring about what others may feel and making her look that she was way better than us.
This picture says it all. I know she would never understand what we felt that time because she had already passed her board examinations and have her own job.. Things were easy for her and not for us. I just do hope that when she experience any failures, she would be able to cope up. If not, that’s pretty bad..
(To be continued since I am already lazy and I would really love to finish this K-drama)